| NEW JOURNAL. |
[17 Jan 2005|12:21am] |
ive got a new journal, im gonna go ahead and add all the ppl i love and am closest to (if theyre not added already).... but anyways.. add me or add me back. whichever the case is.
oh and fyi anyone who cares...one of my friends is into hypnotism/witchcraft etc... and has convinced me to let her practice on me.. so im allowing her to.. shes gonna hypnotize me in a few days.. into not remembering... a certain someone. he should know who he is. i found the truth...and it hurts. goodbye (my last good bye to you)
|
|
| NEW JOURNAL. ADD IT. |
[11 Jan 2005|11:30am] |
i have a new journal... because:
1. im tryin to cut the fat on ppl on my list whom actually read my stuff...
2. ive been having a lot of harassment lately, so wahtever if you love me just add it.. (im gonna keep this journal until most of my freinds join my other one).
|
|
| worst day of my life, i swear... |
[07 Jan 2005|09:28am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 heartache. |
] |
okay so i wanted to update last nite but i decided to wait till i calmed down a lil bit... and im putting it behind a cut because its longer than most peoples entries and i didnt want ppl to have to deal with my long rant haha.
( Read more... )
Meagan.
|
|
|
[05 Jan 2005|06:07am] |
okay the only thing i asked for ....for christmas from everyone was some thinning shears, and some nice scissors...so i could cut my hair. Like nobody got me anything.. no wait my nephew got me a carebear. =) Hes a doll. I adore him. Okay so anyways.. im mad so now my hairs been lookin raggedy and like shit cuz i cant cut it so imma see if i can buy scissors tomorrow. yay =)
"i want you to want me, i need you to need me, im beggin you to beg me...feelin all alone without a freind you know u feel like dying, didnt i see you crying"
MEAGAN.
|
|
| no voice always & forever... |
[04 Jan 2005|09:56pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
depressed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
No Doubt | I Want You To Want Me |
] |
okay so ive been drinking warm tea and lettin my voice rest and doing everything im supposed to and its not getting any better...funny thing. im so shy taht nobody can notice that ive lsot my voice. hahahaha i dont say much anyways... hahaha okay at work JT comes up to me and hits on me and i didnt feel like writting out on paper i couldnt talk so i just glared at him and walked off =) hahaha he called me a bitch. GOOD !!!! JT YOUR UGLY AND ALWAYS WILL BE HAHAHAHA XOXO. Anyways... i had my lil meeting with the school, last one..and i start school in one week. OMG IM SCARED NOOOO....*clings* DONT MAKE ME GOOOO!!!
anyways...okay like it goes without saying that im like still completely bonkers over my ex. ugh.. i dont know why..why is it so hard to just say "okay he doesnt like me, nothing will ever happen again...and jsut give up hope you stupid whore" Seriously why am i holding onto so much hope that this is all just a temporary glitch and we will get back together. whyyyy??? my friend told me the reason i cant get over him is cuz...
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Everyone wants want they feel they cant have.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Him acting as if he doesnt care for you anymore, but knowing you had him at once, gives you a boost of confidence. You know he isnt such a horrible person, and want to win at the game.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Humans are competitors naturaly.
xfaggotronx: so what ur sayin is...i only want him to see if i can get him back...so i can win? lol
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Well...no.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: But thats part of the desire.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: You want him because you miss what you had.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: and on the terms you ended on, you realized you might have been wrong.
xfaggotronx: i know that i was =P
xfaggotronx: ...and i treated him like shit towards the end . ehhh i didnt realize it tho
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Yeah.
yOUrpaNtiesthIef: Well. Have you told him that?
xfaggotronx: i cant...
yeh okay ...well everyones like why do u look so sad all the time why are u always down lately..why wont u eat anything... and i get so annoyed...IM JUST FINE AND DANDY OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE but...im not fine, i dont remember ever being this sad and i am the one who caused it... god im an idiot. okay rant done.
|
|
| keep your mouth shut |
[03 Jan 2005|10:50pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 hopeful |
] |
okay so like...i was practicing in the garage singing like i do sometimes, and i was singing high notes for long periods of time - when my mom comes in and goes "you cant go that high in your range for that long of time your gonna ruin your voice...and your not gonna be able to talk for awhile" i was like pffftttt i know what im doing okay... your not a musician okay you dont knwo what your talking about... and then in the middle of a high note my voice just stops working. i was like ahh *spazz-freakout-spazz* ahhhh for like a day i havent been able to talk whatsoever... i can barely lightly whisper.
when i do it sounds like im just breathing and tryin to form words. ugh... damn it >;\. id be scared of losing my voice forever and ever if this has never happened....but a couple yrs ago i lost my voice for a couple days, and i was fine so im sure it will come back. Anyways so everyone in my family thinks its hilarious and comes up to me and yells at me and insults me cause its funny because i cant say anything back...and i cant even scream or anything...i tried to scream earlier and nothing came out.
anyways...im makin myself sick from everything thats been goin on.. ugh i keep wheezing when i start coughing its so sad... ugh. i feel like the biggest loser in the world..and for some reason im having a discussion with one of my e-freinds about how nice my rack is hahahahaha...okay im done...
meagan.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
infectedd's journal